The Highs & The Lows
What I do when I am in a Low Vibe State
You might expect, because of the name of the website, there are some high vibe people behind it, trying to tell the rest of the world the big secret of expansion.
Well, I’m not a steady high viber for sure.
As a matter of fact, I think at this point in my life it is 65% high, 35% low and that is an improvement compared to a few years ago, when it was the other way around.
Since I decided to focus on the good, experience the bad and try to learn from the ugly, it started to get better. My vibes are significantly higher now, but damn, the lows haven’t vanished though. They are still there, hitting me right in the face and they seem to have more impact because the gap between high and low is expanding.
My intention of this blog is to share the lows, learn something and hopefully be an inspiration as you see me shift along the way. When I read my blog posts one year from now and see that I shifted to 70/30 or even higher, it would be amazing. And if our posts encourage you to shift as well, that would be even better. Because we are all in this together.
What I learned the last years is, the only way to deal with the lows, is to give it as much love as you have to give. The lows are your teacher, guiding you to all there is. The highs can never be high if you haven’t met the great depths of the low. For me, that’s what life is about. As you live your life, sooner or later, this life or the next, you’ll learn the essence of being, experiencing and finally creating.
“If our posts encourage you to shift as well, that would be even better. Because we are all in this together.”
That said, I’m not there yet. I’m writing this in the middle of a low. What is my dark place like? It’s the place where all my fears are having a party and I’m the guest of honor. I believe everything my ego is telling me and it isn’t good. Sometimes I imagine what it would be like if you told somebody else all day what your ego tells you on a bad day. I think that person would burst into tears and never come back.
Then there is the battle within the battle. You hate yourself for battling and beat yourself up for still being in that place facing the same old stuff you thought you grew out of. Next to the battle is the anxiety. “What if I made all this up just to survive? What if the highs are me, escaping reality? What if I learn too slow in this life? What if I fall short? What if I can’t escape these awful feelings?”
The things I’m learning about the law of attraction aren’t helping me now. The law of attraction becomes my worst fear when I’m in a dark place. I am a magnet and this magnet is pulling some bad shit now. I’m afraid I’m bringing something bad upon myself so I’m slightly panicking. I have to turn this around, but I don’t know how. What is this telling me, where did I missed the turn? How? Writing this, is making me sad again.
A little voice inside me says:” What if this is meant to be?” What if you are just perfect the way you are, battling, struggling, laughing, smiling, doubting, joking, fighting, loving, making up. What if you wanted to experience this and you have the ultimate freedom to choose which things you would like to experience more?”
I want to choose love, I really do. But how does love feel in a dark place? I’m not sure. There is no warm fuzzy feeling to discover in my body. What is love?
“Attention, no judgement, curiosity, acceptance, patience,” the little voice continues. Take all the time you need and decide to choose love every time you are facing your fears. That’s why you’re here for. Love isn’t forcing to feel light, love isn’t thinking positive all the time. Love isn’t being sugary towards other human beings all the time. Love is to be there for yourself in the highs and especially in the lows. Love is to be there for others in the highs and lows.
The instant relief I feel in my body after writing these words are a sign I’m on the right track. I also start to feel compassion for other people. Like I said, we’re all in this together. You are also figuring out how life works.
You also, at some point, started this journey and decided to live this life to become a better being. I respect an honor you for that, no matter at what point you are. No warm fuzzy feelings. I’m not a hugger, it’s not like that. I know you also have your highs and your lows, your inner battles, your fears and your joy and I love you for that.